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Gangsta 2 Da Core

This SONG has a very interesting history that I’m glad I can finally explain! The song actually was started before I even got to Pittsburgh. I originally wrote this song a few months after I completed the track with MC Breed back in 2004. The 1st version of this song was actually me tacking 3 verses I had wrote to another beat over this West Coast sounding track. My cousin M. Frank came up with that whole situation…he hated that version…I rewrote it, rerecorded it, then released the song…it was SO bad! That instrumental didn’t work well with my vocals either, in my opinion. I needed something different…

Enter Flawless of The Olympicks

Track 5: Gangsta 2 Da Core

I have been knowing Flaw since his stage name was Snax. And I do believe that is around the time I acquired the instrumentals from him. Before him and The Olympicks became big time producers for Lil Wayne, Rick Ross and whoever else, he worked with me! He threw me this track back when we were all green to how the recording process worked. I mean, we could record songs, but not knowing how to make them radio quality held us back a lot. Live and learn. Learn then teach.

Fast forward maybe 5 years or better, I finally had the chance to record the song with my own equipment. At that point, I performed the song in Los Angels California, Springfield Ohio, Cleveland Ohio, & Pittsburgh Pennsylvania a few times. I originally intended for the song to be on my 1st studio LP, I was going to have the beat updated so that it could be mixed properly. Then the accident

Being that this was an album cut, this song held a LOT more weight to it than the rest of the tracks. I wrote this song with the intent that it could be a single. I also let a lot of my personal and business connections be known on wax. This song is lyrical, metaphorical, comical, and most important: authentic. A LOT of my personality is in this track. On the album, this song was to come before one of my FAVORITE songs. It also set the tone for the next direction of my 1st album, the LP that I’ve spent my entire life writing. Too bad I had to put that momentum on hold…for the moment. I still plan on following through with my original intent for this song. One day it will be heard the same way I hear it in my head.

“Ü gotta ride to the bass/ don’t tell a snitch NOTHING/ even if it’s only just a lie to the face!” – Gangsta 2 Da Core

NÜK

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Recorded Revolution

This instrumental also came from my trip to Michigan with Bonez but the way this song came about was with some light inspiration from this crazy white dude. So yeah, I was at the “Walmart of musical instruments” doing what I do best and dude comes in the store one night wanting the chit chat about what I was doing. Keep this in mind, I wore headphone at work ALL the time. So I was listening the the instrumental for this song when he said that it reminded him a song he wrote.

Track 3: Recorded Revolution

Truly, I cannot remember the name of the song dude was talking about but he told me of a song he had wrote about Armageddon . He wanted me to take his lyrics and turn them into a rap song. I was SUPER against this for a few reasons. 1) We signed zero paperwork. 2) He was a member of a PRO and could get royalties. 3) I ain’t finna let nobody write no song for me! Fuck that! But I didn’t tell him I would draw a bit of direction from his words.

I wrote this song with inspiration from The Death of Aiyana Jones, The Shooting of Oscar Grant, The Fukushima Daiichi nuclear disaster, & a change of perspective. I also feel this song is a reflection of a change of my mental. This was around the time when I started to question EVERYTHING. I mean, there was NOTHING that was taboo in my search for something that I could call, under/overstand as “Truth”. Questioning myself, my surroundings, my inner feelings and even my personal motives for doing the things that I do. I truly was becoming hyper analytical of myself and the world I reside.

After THREE attempted recordings, I have a final mix that could use a revolution of its own. I did not expect this track to have such a heavy political/conspiracy type angle. I was just writing my thoughts and emotions down about how I felt the the moment. When it is all said and done, I wish I knew what I was doing when I recorded this song. I could have gotten my point across a bit more direct.

“A cloud drops out the sky/ and the whirlwind fly./ Watch the water level rise/ and Ü don’t know why?” – Recorded Revolution

NÜK

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G’z Don’t Dance

This song has a few different elements to it that make it special in a certain way…to me. So first, this was the FIRST time I worked with That Kid Beaze after well over 5 years. I actually was someone who lightweight mentored him in “beat making”. He took it to a completely different level and started getting placements with people I wanna work with! My dude is dope! Haven’t heard from him in a while though…

Track 3: G’z Don’t Dance

I had the BRILLIANT idea to make a song for the club, a dance track if Ü will. The only issue that could come from that? I don’t like the club or dancing…go figure. So, my concept was to take one through how I THOUGHT it was like going through a club. I still don’t think I hit my mark for either one of the ideas I had for this song. It eventually became more of a “shout out” type of song. I low key mentioned “The Cream Team” in the 2nd verse just because I was working on an endeavor with them during the time I was working on the song.

After I met my Queen, she had me make a Soul Train music video for the song…I think it turned out nicely. All and all, this song took me out of my comfort zone for sure! I still believe that it could have been different…better even. Tell me what Ü think! I like the feedback more than anything.

“Ü might buzz from the drink Ü sip/ but the bartender love the way I tip” – G’z Don’t Dance

NÜK

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The Monthly Evaluation

Looking back over the things that I have been overtaking lately, I can clearly see that things are progressing in a direction that I deem positive. The most important thing that I see is the things I have done in my past. Not that I tend to live in my past, but more so, I like to observe and learn from the footprints I leave behind.

I wrote a blog earlier this year about Perspective…my perspective to be specific.

I did that basically to put what I am doing/have been going through “on paper”. Seeing those things were like seeing a wall of successes, brick by brick, built with sweat and Time.  I usually reference that blog myself occasionally and lately…it dawned on me:

That perspective I had on Life has changed drastically! So much so that most of what I wrote has come into some type of fruition. During a conversation with one of my aunts a few weeks prior to writing this piece, she stressed to me how important and necessary it is to write down the thoughts and plans on my mind. As much as it has been stressed to me in the past, one would believe that I write EVERYTHING down! I actually can’t stand writing. I don’t even like writing raps on paper…until I copyright them…

I will be writing this “Monthly Evaluation” down though! Maybe not so much a monthly thing and more and “ongoing evaluation process”.  I want to be able to tackle objectives in order of mentalogical order…I made that word up but its ohkay though…

A lot of projects are arriving on a release, reveal, unleash, unveil and all them other words of wonder and refreshment! I will continue to tweak and fine tune all the tools I have in order  to bring the grandest experience possible from my side of the spectrum. Progress is a process and I loving the experiences that come from each day! I will be keeping Ü well informed in whatever way that I know how! So be smooth this weekend and don’t forget to brush you teeth!!!

NÜK

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State of The Mental

I want to make this post as clear as possible, mostly for myself. After spending hundreds of HOURS and investing THOUSANDS of dollars (that I don’t have) on “becoming a better me”, I do believe I have figured it out. The truth of the matter is:

I have ALWAYS been a dynamic & incredible individual, but my confidence & self esteem levels have been FUCKED OVER COMPLETELY during this lifetime.

It takes very mature individuals to recognize, understand, and OVERstand how those experiences shape the mind of a human. Definitely not gonna act like Im one of those people! I do have a grand grasp on how I feel the world around me should work though…and it pisses me off and worries me dayum near every day. Knowing I can’t change certain things is a coping tool. That still doesn’t stop me from trying to understand  and even attempting to change things within myself.

Which brings us to the current:

Secrets can not be secrets if there are people who know. Period.

While not trying to elaborate on that thought much, I will say I have never had anything to hide. I am & will continue to be an open book…the one that speaks to Ü n shyt!!! Its just that lately, for me at least, the big picture is becoming more clear and recognizable. Not saying I know EXACTLY whats going on, but all the pieces are coming together to form a storyline. The Truth can only be veiled for a limited of time…like the 99 cent Whopper.

Clarity is the current goal and message I will be striving to push from this point forward. I will not be abandoning the message of Change anytime soon, I just want to focus on becoming more clear with my intentions. Might need to construct a guideline or templet for myself to follow…keep me on track with what I want to achieve…a “map to success” if Ü will!  Ill keep Ü posted on what happens with this new shift in thinking and perception.

NÜK

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The Closed Minds Eye

Lately, the information circulating the planet has been opening up some questions that I personally have very little answers for…might not ever get the answers either. I will say though, these are some super exciting times that we are living in! The next decade is going to provide us with a deeper understanding of our place in this life. Only for those who are awake and aware of the impending changes upon us.

I get pretty deep into this type of thing for real! I tend to stare into the night sky, often times for hours, looking at the planets and stars. I think I have sometime of “Mothership” in my backyard sky as well….I know its NOT a star! I HAVE seen a “UFO” a few times before, most notably while I was in Sacramento, Ca. I believe and am hyper positive that a few crafts have been reversed engineered and are in active flight around the globe. Ü can think and believe otherwise, but they MUST have a grand reason for sending probes, cameras, satellites, unmanned/manned missions to distant planets, etc.

The biggest factor of all is that we have not been told what is “real”. Our reality has been defined based on the perceptions of those that are “in power”. Even though I have become privy in certain lines of thinking and information, I can only speculate about what is truly going on behind closed doors. One thing that I DO know, there are people who wish to see us ALL dead. We are living in “The Last Days” that are spoken of in that book about that one guy. There ARE people who KNOW what is going on!

Don’t be a sheep…
Don’t count sheep either!

NÜK

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Afrika Bambaataa & Hip Hop Homosexuality

I have been following the story of Africa Bambaataa, allegedly, molesting young men in the 70’s, since it was broken by Troi Torian about 3 weeks ago. This is shocking on a few different levels for me, mainly because I wanted to become a member of The Zulu Nation less than 3 years ago. Depending on who Ü ask, this is also shocking on a cultural level (if Ü consider Hip Hop a culture) based on the implications that there are those in the early beginnings of the Hip Hop Movement that were aware of child molestation and homosexual acts, yet choose to hid those things from the public.

The Zulu Nation has come out and stated that Afrika Bambaataa has not been the leader of the Zulus since around the mid 90’s. The Nation has removed themselves away from this situation as to not mix the intents of The Nation & Bambaatta. In so many words, it has come to light that Bambaatta is homosexual and has not (as of this writing) come out to the public. The biggest factor to all of this is the child molestation accusations. To those that had ANY knowledge of that at ANY time, they should be held accountable for their part.

This whole situation begs me to ask the question:

Who else???

Not to speculate more that what can be easily found through a Google Search, who else is doing things in the dark that they do not wish to come to light? Who else is living a false and fabricated lifestyle based on a grand illusion for the masses?

But does that even matter?

I mean, R. Kelly pissed on an underage girl and video tapped it and he still can sell out a stadium full of women. I guess it depends on how much Ü are liked? People will glance over things they don’t like and see only what tickles their minds eye. But at some point shot needs to STOP and people need to be held accountable for their actions.

Ill be watching to see how this story unfolds and deeper…

NÜK

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Day to Day

Things used to be so perfect in my world of naivety! Even when I was doing things wrong it was still right! There is no greater feeling than doing what it is that Ü want to do!

Maybe sex…

But waking up in the morning and KNOWING how the day will end is such a marvelous feeling that I don’t believe enough people have the chance to experience in their lifetime. And those that do? They are too far in age to truly appreciate the gift that is Life!

The goal has been for me to put myself and those around me in a position to do such a thing. That has ALWAYS been my goal and purpose, even when I did not know it. Now that I know, I have this uphill battle to get to where I feel things should be.

Is it wrong that I feel this way?

NÜK

Things On My Mind

To be perfectly honest…

The thoughts that have been on my mental lately can be best described as chaotic. The most important thing I have going for me is a strong woman who is willing to put up with my shyt! I have my ups and downs, but the main thing is that the goals and focus’ are not lost during this trying time.

My cousin once told me  a long while ago that we can go through a “hiatus” only to come back stronger on the end. I don’t want to fall on the end being “not up to par” as I once was. There is also the spirt of competition…I honestly am not in the position to take a loss like I was…I WON’T allow anyone or anything stop me thing next time I rise.

With all these thoughts on my mind and in the air surrounding me, I wonder if it would be wise to take a plunge into the unknown. The part of me that has been repressed for quite sometime. I have not been able to spread my wings out of fear they will be clipped! This is a REAL fear that I have embedded within my mental.

My saving grace is that I can peak without showing face…even that too shall come to a halt shortly. I have…truly…no choice in the matter! I want things to be SO perfect!!!! But yeah…we all know how good perfect turns out to be. So, I have to plunge into a situation that I am NOT all too familiar and/or comfortable with. I have given myself a timeline of the end of the month…

Even before then…

I want to start doing something that will give more purpose to what I have done in the past. Im just not sure where to start with that…

NÜK

Flint First, Your City Next!

 

The video above is just a brief overview of the current crisis in Flint, Michigan. My heart goes out to those people who have to walk miles to get a few gallons of water for the day, each and every day. My soul screams for those that have had to drink this shyt for FAR too long. There is just SO much wrong with this situation on SO many different levels.

If Ü have been following this story for any amount of time, the main focal point is that this is happening to poor people in Michigan, which the rich folks are drinking filtered glacier water. Since this has been happening for the past TWO YEARS, it should be noted that Lead Poisoning is TRAGIC! Every since our daughter came into the world, we have had all types of test n shyt about protecting this child…the lead test is one of them. We had leaded paint in this old ass early 1900 house. However, that is NOWHERE as bas as drinking leaded water.

I just wanted to write this so that those in my personal reach of influence would could get my take on what is going to be one of Americas grandest tragedies of this decade. I will be pledging some type of assistance to the cause. Not just because I am from Michigan and feel I need to help my soil land fam bam, more so because this could be happening where I live and I would pray that someone would be able to do the same.

Bless,

NÜK