It Comes and Goes

by NÜK

Here I sit…

Tis’ the date of your birth! Thirty years ago I was cursed into this blessing of a world…
I have had a rollercoaster ride of stories and memories that have crafted and molded this individual writing these words. The moments that were experienced are nothing compared to what I have envisioned for myself and those closet around me.

I’m getting drunk tonight…

It’s not like this day has not been on the horizon for some time, but I didn’t plan for this either. I stopped doing that when Ü turned “21”. But I will say that I have set high expectations for myself since last August. I am NOT where I want to be, much like yourself, but I am also not a quitter.

*sips the cognac*

My reality will be changing soon…

Looking back at ALL of my actions over the last 8 years, I have made a LOT of selfish decisions. And I would do it again in a heartbeat! Fuck you if Ü feel or think otherwise. You have NOT lived these moments. But I will say that I have fucked up a LOT as well. I will be making sure that my fuck ups were not in vain, but I am SO tired of what I have built for myself. It is an even more somber thought that I have brought another life into this situation I have created.

All in all, I am grand…

Even if it doesn’t seem that way. It is all just a waiting period. It comes and goes though…
The best way I could describe it is like the sway of a pendulum. There are two Highs and one Low. The low happens quick! So quick that some people barely even notice it. After the low point comes one of the highs, an apex and then a fall…

I got distracted and thought about my sign. Being born on the cusp and whatnot. The irony of it all. And then watching my one year old daughter dance to reggae is the icing on the cake.

Just like that.

Happy Born Date Young Sir!

Salute

T. L. Lewis

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