Turmoil of The Artist

I have been through a few things in the last 12 months…

Im STILL going through shyt…

*shrugs*

Since around like…March of last year…a part of me has been taken & twisted…
Thats around the time I found out my cousin was diagnosed with cancer. Since THAT day, I was changed…

I wrote a song for HER to listen to…
I wanted her to hear ME speak directly to her…

She listened to my words of comfort & support and then passed on on Thanksgiving of 2012. 

The strange thing is that I have been performing the song since last summer to grand reception. People TRULY understand where Im coming from with my words. I guess the message is getting across to those who listen…everyone except me!

As a person who LOVES music, I can appreciate the type of song I created. 
As a person who CREATES music…I can’t help but feel like I can make the song better…

As strange as it may sound…I honestly do not like the way the song I created SOUNDS. I feel there are things about the song I could & should change in order to make it more CLEAR & understandable. But at the same time…I didn’t really write the song for Ü to enjoy in that way…I wrote it FROM THE HEART to my cousin. 

She actually heard it the way I wanted it to be heard…thats really all that matters to ME! But as an ARTIST, people will ALWAYS be quick to critique the art I create. Which is where I currently find myself…

Should I recreate this song for the mass appeal or leave it as it is in loving memory???

The choice seems easy don’t it?

NÜK

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