Living Life & Loving It

Month: April, 2013

When Being Real Was Real

Looking around at the people in & around my life I can see how some people don’t even know how to be themselves. Its a sad thing really. I can notice when I walk into a room how a persons whole entire expression can & will change. I have noticed that some people even switch their vocal tone, pattern & infliction when they come around certain types of people. I might even do thi….well…I KNOW I do this! But I don’t do it to deceive a person…its just that white people think I be yelling at them when its just my natural speaking voice….


I’ve been studied!!! I have a stride that must be unlike no other!!! People have imitated it while mocking my stroll…its funny to me!!! But that is my naturalness. I didn’t watch myself on tape practicing the PERFECT swag. But there are people who do that….

My fam bam in Cali said “Real is the new Fake! I’m Authentic!!!” Im have to start saying that shyt because Im Original to the fullest!!! But I also ca not deny my influences that have shaded who I have become. But even if that is the case…there will NEVER be another quite like me….



The Divided States of America

Without going into TOO many details…

I was having a conversation with a pissed of man from Africa. In so many words, the conversation was all about “fairness”. He didn’t quite comprehend how come this country is not “fair”. I had to ask:

What is fair???

It is OBVIOUS to see that THIS country has been divided. Whites vs Blacks vs Mexicans vs Homosexuals vs PETA vs Ruth’s Steakhouse….everybody is in on this separation thing. I have been noticing that we focus more on our differences than what makes us TRULY unique.

I don’t have a problem with gay people wanting to get married and being given credits like a hetro couple. I have ZERO issue with that!!! Let them do that shyt!!! I DO have a problem with it ending up as me being intolerant for not giving a fuck….

No matter how fucked up I think it is or how fucked up of a person I feel Ü are mentally, but if a female want to transform into a “male” but still keep all of it’s female parts so it can become pregnant….


SURE!!!! Go Ahead!!!! Do That Shyt Son!!!! I gives NO fuck playa!!!! Do Ü….
But if people start giving Ü confused looks…don’t ask why…Ü should know that!!!

Me & the African started speaking so much about the “fairness” and all of its ways that he suggested the country’s land be divided and the people of the soils move to where they are most comfortable. Together with their own kinds. Each with their own military & Government…everybody having their own way of doing things & just living by that.

I honestly loved the ideal!!!

The only problem is…I believe that the people of this country LOVE to be in the middle of drama. This type of shyt is what makes the country continue to go around!!! This country has a “News” channel that makes shyt up for ratings. This country has had presidents that didn’t give a fuck about what is going on with the people inside its own walls. I mean, how do Ü start a war, bomb civilians & them send them supplies when multiple cities in your own country need supplies???

Shyt just doesnt make any sense…it used to…but it just started to slowly fade into the darkness of the light.

As I left the conversation, I could help but think about all that I currently know & all that I have no idea about. I made me mad…then I got excited…then I got angry…then I realized that I am not the issue. I did NOT make this country the way it currently is…and I REFUSE to take part in what this place is becoming…this is a hard & dangerous road ahead…

United WE Stand
Divided THEY Fall



Bless Ü

I have truly been working on blessing people BEFORE they sneeze!!! It is one of the hardest tasks I have placed upon myself. In the end, I only want to accomplish more sense of connection with those who I can bless with a blessing. As much as possible & within my power to do so…




Challange Yaself!!!

I actually challenge Ü to challenge yourself!!!

I mean…

When was the last time Ü had an actual challenge???
Something that made Ü a better person because Ü made it???

The BEST thing about this challenge?
I will do it with Ü!!!
Ill try to be there all the way!!!

But Ü gotta do it tho…

…I will know if Ü didn’t…

Cause i WILL ask about it later…

Im SURE that if Ü did it Ü would tell me what Ü accomplished!!!


I Cried

I have told the story MANY times over the past 5.5 years…but yesterday…

I told my brother exactly how it happened…step by step…and as I did that…I was RIGHT BACK behind that wheel.

I saw the streetlights…the road…the curve…I felt the speed…the momentum…

…and the impact…

I felt the friction of me sliding across the median about 300 yards…

…and I sat there…


I saw my brother in front of my face the whole time I told him. I grabbed on to the wall, gripping it in a VICE like clutch!!!

Heart racing…

…breathing heavy…

…DEEP into my past thoughts, emotions & feelings…



“………I am truly blessed…….”