Lackluster Loyalty

by NÜK

I have been taking a deeper look at my surroundings lately. The people in and around them are in dire situations…some could care less. This worries me on multiple levels. 

I KNOW people can’t always be 100 at ALL times, EVERY time! But I truly expect people to  be reliant when it matters most. I believe that I put my faith in people that will abuse it in the worst of ways…

Changing my nature would be adverse to why I am who I am…
Pretending that shit like this doesn’t affect me is a lie. 

I don’t have a violent nature. I DO have anger issues & a strong sense of together & closeness. Separating me from those things is like…trying to test me in a way…

In an effort of keeping myself for becoming something & someone I am not, I will distance myself from issues of concern. Pulling away from certain things will be easier to do than others. I almost have to change my life to become who I always was…

…I just was never that loyal to myself…

…I guess…

NÜK

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