Living Life & Loving It

Month: August, 2012

The Watchtower

Overseeing everything that has anything to do with me has ALWAYS been key. Even when I first started to hang out in small groups of people, not that I felt I had to lead, but I felt the need to know what was going on around the people who were around me. 

Some people were not aware of…a car speeding as we walked across the street or even that their shoes were untied. The more I sit back & reflect on these thoughts I can see that we ALL have played the same role at one point or another. Even myself, I wasnt always as sensible as I am now….

I still do dumb shyt from time to tyme….


Now that I have some years on my age…I can see when certain position should be played. 
I can even see HOW they should be played. 
I have a completely different perspective on many things now…

It has come from me being in an elevated state of mind…even when I aint smoking weed!!!

The hardest part about it all???
I guess that would be staying awake & aware ALL THE TIME!!! 
As much as I would like to come down from my post & position….I feel that I can’t do that…

I feel like, the VERY moment that I come down from even being up here….something is going to happen. I am in constant concern of that. So much so that I neglect the other areas of responsibilities in my kingdom. 

And honestly…Im at the point where I MUST come down…
While watching for an attack on the outside and being in tune with the surroundings around me, I left the inner walls venerable to all types of inconsistency. I can only fault myself…but when I come down…who is going to fill my position???

My concern on that matter might not be as large as I am making it out to be….





Slowly, I have been wrapping my head around the roles that Males & Females should play and ARE playing in relationships. It’s quite a confusing & soulless world that we live within…

I recently stayed with my cousin, his fiance and their 2 year old…THAT was some crazy shyt! Especially considering the events & circumstances that occurred while I was there! I noticed how they interacted with each other, their seed, their families & their friends. It was interesting fareal!!! 

Truthfully, once my lil cousin came in the house I ignored they ass until he ignored me!!!

Watching them interact with their surrounding allowed me to see a dynamic of relationships that I wont get to see very often. People like to speak about the “roles of gender” in relationships. The thing about that is, a relationship consists of BOTH sexes. If one person is lacking in ONE area, the other person picks up the slack for their partner. 

More of a Partnership than Relationship. 

The difference between men & woman is how they attack certain situations. A man might hire a maid sooner than clean up. A woman might hire a mechanic before she changes her own oil on her car. Just examples…

I actually saw that dynamic in action! I even saw how it effect both parties involved. The things that BOTH partners go thru in order to sacrifice for each other & their seed. It was a beautiful thing!!! Funny at times too…

Almost like Chess is played are how their moves were made. 


Quality of a Queen

I kinda have been getting this feeling that I should start trying to pair up with someone…

…this is NOT a recent thought!!!

I have contemplated this for a bout 8 or 9 months.

I am not much of the Romantic type…Im not Roman…


But I read a book about being a Gentleman and how one should act in the presence of royalty…that gives me an edge!!! 

Im not the most………….con-vent-shun-al…..

But I do know how to get my point across the street to get an answer!!!

Which brings me to this thing they call dating??? I have no ideal how to comprehend whats really going on these days…nor do I even try to make any sense of it. 

I do know that when THAT female comes a long & decides to make her next move a power move…only grand things can come from that!!! 

Until then…I gotta define the qualities that I would like to see in MY Queen. That is my personal challenge…

Could be worse…

I can remain single & deal with the bullshyt!!!!


A Kings Dominion

I recently have came back into America from Toronto, Canada. I missed the Caribana this year, I will be sure that next Summer will be more on point!!!! 

This passport has opened up more land for me to travel & explore…the only problem is making sure, whenever I leave the country, the people that I leave behind are safe & secure. Judging from the constant phone calls, text messages, tweets, I think I received a telepathic message…yea…people worry about The Young Man while I walk out the door. 

If they only knew how save I am…respect goes a long way…some further than others…

Before Canada, I went to Michigan to handle some Interstate business face to face & see family. I can say that even though I did not have a car, I had a ride anywhere I wanted to be. I am not going to brag on the luxuries that I had, but I saved a lot of money by sleep on couches as opposed to hotels…

The constant phone calls….

I had a cousin, whose house I stayed over, tell me that because I was in his crib, it was one of the busiest days he has ever had. That is reassurance that I am not a lazy as I have thought myself to be. Even in my idleness, I maintain a certain energy around me that causes movement!!! 

I like that…

Due to the conversation & actions with the people that I met (& even those that I did not even see at all) I have came to the conclusion that my focus has been on the wrong things. My thoughts have not been matching my actions. I have even came to the point of trying new ways of tackling old issues. I am fully under the impression of how much need there is for someone other than me…

But I’ll speak about next time…