Doing the self reflection I have been over the last few weeks has brought out something about myself that need to be addressed. I won’t go into details about them here, but I have spoken about them on Twitter. While working on those things in a prompt manner, I have begun critically thinking about other aspects of my life. Like…
WHAT THE HELL AM I PAYING FOR CAR INSURANCE WHEN I DON”T EVEN DRIVE THE MOTHAFUCKA!?!?!!?
CHILDREN JUST DON’T HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE ANYMORE????
Truly, that is all I have to say. I just got a letter saying I owe The Lizard $120 dollar and it got me to thinking about how I work from home and actually SELL insurance (not auto tho, yet). I need to start a petition and protest this shyt.
9 months since my last post….Im working on consistency consistently.
To keep it to the point(s):
– I Don’t Wanna Be a Meme King.
Honestly, the shyt is funny! I like seeing The Internet take the smallest things and blow em up astronomicallyout of proportions! But I just wanna be a part of the meme team. I tried it. Its not me. It takes too much time to “be the 1st” or “most original” in the meme world. I actually invested in meme stocks but I….don’t no much about the commodity. I tried it…its not me…I’m done.
I know a LOT of people. I have met a LOT of people. I happen to follow some of em! But look, it’s a lot of yall “stealing” shyt from people that stole it from somebody and are not giving credit. Credit where Credit is due! I have SUCH a MAJOR issue with the lack of originality being displayed in front of my iris’ that I just need to remove it all together. I should NEVER feel like Ive seen everything on the internet…twice.
– Kinda Don’t Like Seeing People I Know Lie About The Life They Lead
To each their own, but y’all truly think don’t nobody know how flaw Ü are? Like, it really irks me when I see a post about one thing from someone, only to get a confirmation about another things from someone else….only to get lied about it in my face or over the phone. It is SO amazing how people respond when people don’t react the way they wanted/expected them to do. It’s beginning to become too much for ME to hold other peoples lies in my mental.
– I Need To Focus
Everyone likes a good distraction! But when the distraction becomes a habit…and not even a good one it starts to wear and tear on the psyche. I have lost more than a few of my precious times and moments but not being fully engaged in the environment around me. I need to regain my square and center myself. And I need to do this not just for self…Im a family man!
– I Need To READ
I can sit and scroll and like and double tap and read posts ALL DAYUM DAY….but wont pick up one of these books I spent money on. There was a point in time where I was CRUSHING books on a weekly basis, check my IG feed ( I post the book once I finish it). I haven’t completely read a booking in over a year at this point. That is NO bueno. I need to start and continue reading BOOKS that will help me create and cultivate better life skills and neural pathways.
– Its Boring
I no longer find YOU being bored entertaining….its boring me. Maybe its because Im going through some things that are requiring me to grow up? Either way, I no longer wish to be entertained. I want to be informed so I can build, prosper, and get this paper!!!
In so many words: I need to do something else.
I gotta realign my visions, focus, thoughts, patterns, and mental.
Been dealing with a LOT mentally these last few months and I am finally getting to the point I can do something about it…so I will. I appreciate ALL those who flex with me in one way or another. I also appreciate all those who are just finding about about me as well. Its gonna be interesting…the things that will come from this.
NOT to make this post VERY long winded, I will condense MULTIPLE topics & subjects into four sentences or less. It has been a minute since I have had an “urgency” about myself so excuse the mystique. The best part about this process is that Ü can ask ME questions, and I will elaborate.
1st of all: FUCK FACEBOOK!!!
I’m just not a fan and have never been much of one. I use it mainly now for the people who have met me in person. That’s it. No new friends! And I’m lightweight sketchy about a few that I have. I delete people on their born date. Twitter is where I like to be…
F.R.E.S.H.H. Radio hasn’t went ANYWHERE!
I have been doing other things that actually have a more reasonable effect on my bottomline. Playing songs for people who don’t share the links is useless for the platform. But that’s another story. It’s coming back tho…
I Sell Life, Health, Dental, Vision, Accidental, Supplemental Insurance!
And I am STILL learning products, procedures, protocols, and shyt like that. If Ü out there looking, don’t be surprise if I call that ass!!! If Ü need some clarity let me know.
I QUIT PLANET FITENESS & STARTED WEALTH FITNESS!!!
Yoooo!!! I’m always learning something. Keeping a square circle & moving in triangles.
$100,000 By The End Of The Year!!!
I need to employ one or 2 people by the end of the year and then I can move on to the next phase. But all that is future speak that Ü don’t need to know about right now.
I’m just clearing the space so I can start the week off on a fresh note. Blank slate. Dinner plate. Large fry, chocolate shake!!!
To those that are following this journey, the well informed should know that I relocated my family from Pittsburgh, PA to Dallas, TX almost 2 years ago. Two years in April actually! Since then, the hustle had to transform and reshape into something that I will be getting into later in this blog.
The main ideal is that, the things we want most in life don’t just happen! At some point, actions has to come into play. So for the last 2 years, I have been learning as much as possible about this new industry that has come into my world. I have taken the time to study and have applied myself in a few different areas and I do believe now is the time to start incorporating it into my life/lifestyle.
With all fanfare needed for this new endeavor, I will be making sure to reach out to people who I feel can benefit from my knowledge and with the rest of that time, I will attempt to trickle down to the masses the information that has brought me understanding and comfort. I also have worked (and will be working) with 401ks, retirement accounts, investment accounts, a few stock market accounts. But I want to master (make money) one area and then move into the next.
I’ve had this story for a long time but I’m gonna share it now, for whatever reason. Hope it moves Ü:
Once a group of 500 people were attending a seminar. Suddenly the speaker stopped and decided to do a group activity. He started giving each person a balloon. Each person was then asked to write their name on it using a marker pen. Then all the balloons were collected and put in another room.
The people were then let into that room and asked to find the balloon which had their name written on it within 5 minutes. Everyone was frantically searching for their name, colliding with each other, pushing around others and there was utter chaos.
At the end of 5 minutes no one could find their own balloon.
Then, the speaker asked each person to randomly collect a balloon and give it to the person whose name was written on it. Within minutes everyone had their own balloon.
The speaker then began, “This is happening in our lives. Everyone is frantically looking for happiness all around, not knowing where it is.
Our happiness lies in the happiness of other people. Give them their happiness; you will get your own happiness. And this is the purpose of human life…the pursuit of happiness.”
I missed the 15th due to me losing my job (“Before Christmas?” IDGAF Brah!) and attempting to make sure I can prepare before this New Year that has fell upon us. I have been on this “Forward Moving” train of thought. Having the ability to maintain momentum and sustain it for a long duration is a skill that I’m working earnestly to sharpen this year. I feel different at this time…a certain clarity and focus has fallen upon me.
Released a single on the 21st on last month. I did that for a FEW different reasons:
1.) It was the 1st day of Winter 2020. 2.) I wanted to end 2019 with a release. 3.) It has been a LONG time coming. 4.) A few other reasons but that’s enough for right now
Check it out on Spotify, Apple Music, iTunes, Amazon, and all the other streaming sites! I’m working on a concept for a music video right. Don’t let me know if Ü like it, tell a friend!
I truly have to look at things for what they are, learning experiences. Everything is offering me a chance to learn from it, in one way or another. My job is to figure out what lessons to take from these situations I find myself in. Speaking from the heart, I got a lot to learn y’all. I also have a lot to share…
It’s over tho! We in them 20’s now! Looking back on the last decade I have made a LOT of strides to get to where I am currently. So as the dust settles and we can start seeing clearly in 20/20.
To be ALL the way honest, I haven’t written a song to completion in like 3 years. Maybe 4 at this point. It’s not that I “don’t want to do it” any more, it’s more like stress, duress, frustration, and some more shyt. The beautiful thing about this is that I have written and recorded a LOT of songs since I got my home studio in 2011. The trickle down process is now starting.
Went broke going to the 2019 Grrrd Awards in Newport Beach, CA but the caviate to it all is that I made connections that would have NEVER happened if I stayed my ass at the crib and conformed. Linked with cuzzo C-Lim & shot the music video to “Real Cripi” on a yacht! Met & networked with dayum near everybody on that thang. And Ü know what they say about what networking do to your net-worth.
Lost two special people that have shaped me as a human last month. I don’t personally have any pictures to share of them, so I will just leave it at that. Speak to your loved ones, if Ü say Ü love em like Ü do. Go see em while they can still appreciate being around your essences. . .
And that’s all I have to say about that…
Closing out another year, I’ll FINALLY release a single of the LONG OVER DUE Extended Production (EP) “Sketches vol.1”. The song will be available on all the streaming platforms possible on the 21st of this month! I’ll ,ake sure Ü check it out…one way or the other…
A few days ago I went to take my daughter to school and while I was driving I noticed I was pulling to the right a bit hard. My mind ain’t been in the right frame in a few so I thought I needed an alignment. I drop her off and come back to the car and it has a FULL FLAT tire.
I do NOT drive my truck far/nor often enough to even sustain such an injury to my vehicle (his first name is Sim…Sim Sonoma). I pull out my portable air pump and let it bang. It fill up completely and there was no sign of leaks. Which brings us to today…4 days later…and the tire still has air in it.
Now, I’m not the smartest of men, but air just don’t…leak ALL THE WAY out of ONE tire under normal circumstances, right? I do not recall hitting a nail or glass or person in the last long time so I’m good there. And the tires I keep on Simmy are something decent. ALL of those things lead me to only ONE conclusion:
Somebody Stole AIR Out My Tire!!!!
I’m pissed there are people that low in the world…
So I was giving an interview to a Ms. Dawn Witte, whom had recently come from Africa visiting children she sponsors, when she invited me to Africa with her in 2020. She truly urged me to move things in my schedule in order to make that trip. I did not deny the request, but I didn’t confirm it either….
Shortly after that, I was invited to attend the 8th Annual Grrrd Awards, held in Newport Beach, CA. I actually had to make a VERY quick decision on rather I would attend or so….I choose to go to LA! Truly didn’t know what I was getting myself into, but the intentions are to change my current situation for the better.
Right after I booked my flight, I call my mans in LA! Except he wasn’t in LA any more. He moved to ATL to continue filming for a few TV shows he works on. But then he offered for me and my wife to come out to ATL with him for a week or so. I said “Hell Yeah!”. So now I gotta plan for that in the Spring…or sooner…
I set up another interview with an EXTREMELY interesting individual, Tim Trillioni. During the interview. He invited me to conduct my show in New Orleans in early February, kinda close to Mardi Gras he said. Much like Atlanta and Africa, I’ve never been, so if the information is provided to me, Ill be Louisiana and maybe take my wife and children to see that Sonic The Hedgehog movie.
Don’t block your blessing by being indecisive. (A message to self)
It has been a long minute since I have written a post such as this (Xzibit A, B, C, & X). I almost feel that I could put TOO much in this post…so I won’t. I will say, I have to make it my duty to be on point this time. I will not go into TOO many details in this post, but just let it be known that THAT post is coming! This is the forcible 1st of many more to come.
I have been finding it easy to make any type of excuse for the things I KNOW will make me a better, more rounded human being. So I need to hold myself accountable in more than 3 dimensions. Taking accountability for the things that I DO have control over is one of the 1st steps in making the things I want to happen.
With these/those words above being true to their being in the position I have placed them, I will be moving forward on a positive tip. I just want to start making small impacts more so than large achievements. The goal is to make sure I am being heard…even if I’m only being read (red not reed). This is the 1st of many. Many 1st this is the of…