Living Life & Loving It


Lately it seems that I might be burning the candle at both ends. I do not believe that I will “burn out” anytime soon, although I do feel as if I am not doing something correctly. Keeping up with The Jones is real! Not even saying that I want to have certain things or be a part of certain conversation (I refuse to watch Game of Thrones), more so that I am running in a hamster wheel and thinking that is progress.

In order to get the results that I have been striving for, I need to shift my focus a bit. THIS blog was start as a response to Myspace removing my original posting place. I picked the topic “Thoughts of a Conflicted Blackman” as a blanket to cover the topic that occur in MY life. Since the creation, I have evolved into much more than a conflicted individual. I have been learning towards social commentary more, I have touched on global news/politics, and even have posted a few of my fears, stresses, anxieties and much more over the last 5 years…but should I continue¿

Not saying I will quit writing this blog, but I feel as if I should be starting in a new direction. I will always have thoughts of confliction as a black man, but I am SO much more than that! I have a family that a rarely speak of online. I have ambitions as a father that I stress over, I have hobbies other than the music I so immensely enjoy creating (gardening anyone?), I have motivational & inspirational stories of my past that I want to share, I have been working on starting a program for people with low self esteem as well as program for young people who want to make a career in the music industry. All these things do not fit well into this space I have created.

In order to best serve my audience (and myself), I want to know if I should continue writing in this blog. I will always write in it…but the frequency will definitely change and the content will start become more editorial than a “brain spill”. Just gotta ask my audience and see if they are open to the next phaze of development before I go and start a new something, leaving my established grounds unmanaged.

Just a thought I was thinking…

Now my friend, go off and be grandly awesome on this day given to us! I will catch Ü later!

Be Smooth,


Nobody’s Dream

I have been doing a LOT with myself over the last few weeks, almost like Im playing catch up with myself (as usual). The momentum of how I want things to be is not matching the number of hours in a day. The greatest part about restructuring my life is finding out what works and what doesn’t…who works and who will not…who to allow on projects and, Ü get the ideal.

It all starts with me truly. All the issues, complaints, delays, surges of nothings and lackluster effort…all comes from my doing.

See, if I allow certain people, places or things to take control of what I am creating, I will lose. The fact of the matter is that nobody cares as much as I do about what I do. There might be people reading this saying “But NÜK, iCare!”, and I appreciate those people but see…Ü don’t care enough…

Im not saying there is a gage of carability that comes along with a CD or soap purchase or something, but there just comes a point where people will not care about YOUR project like YOU will. Deep down, there is a certain joy & pride that comes with creating something from scratch. That is the reason some people enjoy cooking. Thats why there are people who enjoy doodling on Starbucks cups. Those are the type of people who do artsy things because it was Tuesday. Nobody tells them to do those things…they just do…

Allowing someone to control or even have a certain amount of control over your work can make the last seem like it is not even worth pursuing. This is not the case with me though. I would sooner put my foot in somebody ass before I allow them to have me in a tight situation. I have been in a few situations like that in the past and now try my best to avoid allowing someone the upper hand on MY art(s). I just got pissed after I sent a text message and came here to vent.

And I appreciate your time greatly!


Teaching The Reincarnated Self #JaT

While writing “200 Years Later”, I started thinking of a dope ass concept:

What if the things Ü do NOW will have a direct influence on who Ü will be in the next life?

Let me explain this a little bit further because i know I tend to be thinking something and not quite able to flesh it out properly. But I, like a few people called crazy, believe that reincarnation is a FACT. I feel that it is a basic principle in this existence we call Life. The energy that animate this shell we call a body will travel into another, creating another experience in the expression of humanity.

Thats just how Im going to explain it here.

But so, what if, after Ü have lived your life to the fullest and have passed blissfully during slumber, Ü awake into a new world. Once Ü come to a certain age of understanding, Ü began to read books about this person in history that was of grand significance in one way or another. For whatever reason, this person of the past intrigues Ü in ways that are unexplainable. A fire for knowledge and understand of who this person becomes ignited and rekindled with every bit of information Ü uncover. This quest becomes an odd obsession that begins to consume a portion of your being…it feels…familiar…

After some time of deep meditation, Ü have come to see the current world through the eyes of your historically submerged mind. The marvels that proliferate the world around Ü are exponentially advanced over the primitive toys of the the past age….

How dope would that actually be???

Truth be told, I never too much “dream” about what it would be like in the next life, because I AM still living in THIS life. But just for the moment of writing this piece, it was grand to think about living the next life. Seeing how far we have went from this point. How we fixed our fuck ups and corrected those of others on the planet. Just living in a place that was built upon the sacrifices that were made NOW, in this lifetime. Im pretty sure this planet will not look like how I saw in this writing in my lifetime, everybody would know what to do with all that right now.

Bringing myself back down to reality, the one we are living together currently. The ripple effect is something that I want to create with whatever I have done with my life. Like most people of prominence, the impact on the planet won’t be truly appreciate until that person is no longer here. But I would like to think IF that soul decided to come back and experience the life at a later date, the impact of the previous lifetime would show itself to that one. Even if they were to never connect the dots and know that they are the person who has that ability to change the world.



200 Years Later

Since Prince has passed away, the only thing I have thought about is The Vault. That storage of music is something that makes SO much sense in the music industry. Being a recording artists myself, I can see myself in a similar situation. Creating and recording music constantly and not releasing it for the general public. Even now I have songs that I truly don’t believe will see the light of day in their current form. Over the course of the last 5 years, I have learned a tremendous amount about mixing and mastering music. All those things combined have cut out thousands of dollars in studio fees and costs and have allowed me to record my children in home (my two year old like to rap & play piano).
With the money made from musical endeavors, I want to invest in a school of arts. I truly have a passion for the musical arts, but I feel that their are other art forms that are just as grand and beautiful, with little or even untapped resources for in black communities. My son constantly tells me about wanting to do something with cells but I have no ideal as to broaden that seed other than water and entertain his dreams. I want a school of art that will water the dreams of those who never knew it could be possible!
So in the year 2216, not only will the progeny of my blood line be teaching at the school, Ill also have a music hall dedicated to me. The school don’t even got to be named after me, I just want the music hall to show the student the impact I made on the planet with the art I created. Not only will it contain the music compositions from “The Vault” of art I created while still breathing, the top graduating students of the music classes might even get an unreleased verse from me. Im pretty sure Ill be able to have a hologram of myself congratulating students on completing their enlightenment through the school curriculum. And once a year, the day of my death, a new song from The Vault will release to the planet. Not saying it like it will be the greatest song ever, it might suck, but it will be released into the music industry.


I can see that!!! And what makes things even better? I WANT to see that happen!!! I want to be able to make those things happen!!! I WILL see to it that those things I wrote about will come into fruition. I need to start inspiring what will be the future me!

Who knows what the future holds…it was unwritten until just now though…



Ultimate Tic-Tac-Toe

Check out this different variant on #TicTacToe!!!


Math with Bad Drawings

Updated 7/16/2013 – See Original Here

Once at a picnic, I saw mathematicians crowding around the last game I would have expected: Tic-tac-toe.

As you may have discovered yourself, tic-tac-toe is terminally dull. There’s no room for creativity or insight. Good players always tie. Games inevitably go something like this:

But the mathematicians at the picnic played a more sophisticated version. In each square of their tic-tac-toe board, they’d drawn a smaller board:

As I watched, the basic rules emerged quickly.

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Cash Flow Creation

A while ago I was reading a book called Rich Dad/Poor Dad and came across concept of “Cash Flow”. It is one thing to have a source of “Income”, but “Cash Flow” is something different. If I may try to explain in my own words:

Cash flow is having access to a stream of revenue that is independent of your jobs pay check.

Im not talking about a “side hustle” or something like that either. Im speaking on a full term, couple hundred dollar, weekly or DAILY source of income. I have been studying the basics surrounding the concept of cash flow but I have yet to obtain a RELIABLE source of my own. Granted, I do have a few investments that allow me a certain freedom that I know most don’t have, I still have a long way to go before I have the type of cash flow that can replace my 9-5.

The objective is to define what I truly want to experience from an enhanced stream of income. I know that having MORE entitles to have more of a responsibility both financially and emotionally and that is something I have been preparing for. Placing myself in a bubble of knowledge seems to be the best way to see the results that I strive for but learning and executing are two different applications that I have been coming to understand more clearly lately.

Working on the application process, the ACTION, is what I have been lacking most. If Ü read my last blog, Ü can understand why I have had a hard time executing a few projects I created. Having too many irons in the fire is almost as bad as not having enough. Balance is key! I have been working on this balance thing. That is a serious issue in my life. That why I named my next music project #Unbalanced. I’m a Libra, Im supposed to have this shyt figured out!

As summer quickly approaches, I would love to refine the terms I sit my square firm upon. I need to create a culture that people can relate with. I also will be cultivating a code of conduct that I will be known by. If people can hear my name, see my logos, or engage with me and the products I create, they will KNOW what to expect of me. Creating a type of “product recognition” with my name & brands. Even when it come to the brands I use, I want the same type of feelings and thought processes behind my every action. Building muscle memory with my created cash flow options is currently key!

The hustle never stops! Even if I did decide to slow down (which I have), the game won’t wait for me! Sharpening the tools of trade will be the best way to stay ahead of the career curve. Trust me when I tell Ü these words are coming from a well learned experience! Im trying to figure out how to make EVERY move made the most powerful that they could be. Maybe this might morph into something else completely? I just know I have to continue to create the why I have been and maybe even more so! The grit don’t quit!



Drawstring Effect

On many occasion I have called myself “Supreme King Multitask”, the fourth. I can truly see how, over the course of me doing EVERYTHING…nothing truly gets accomplished. It is not to say that things do not get done, but more so the WRONG things are done. I have felt like I have wasted many hours doing “nothing” in the pursuit of doing “what I love”.

So many unfinished projects…

So much frustration…


But in the end, I have done SO many things, have my hand in SO many projects, to the point that I NEED to bring everything together under ONE umbrella. For my mind to operate efficiently, I need a certain amount of clarity, mental & spacial. My space is maintained properly, but it is minimal. Looking to expand in the VERY near future, I need to bring more focus to what I feel are the grandest things for my brand. At the same time, I MUST provide the most absolute for my household.

So bringing everything under one roof is KEY in the upcoming weeks. Time seems to not be on the side of the unprepared. And even though I have been “doing nothing” for so long, it has made an impact in a major way in areas I were not aware. Pulling the preverbal rope tight is at the core of my actions. I have been looking into a business plan lately…Im thinking of creating some type of “life plan” to coincide with the goals & aspirations. Action will dictate this outcome & Im R.E.A.DY.!!!



Like ButtCheeks

I was on the phone with my female sibling one day speaking her upcoming Fashion Show dates in Chicago & Detroit next month. While trying to figure out driving, meetings, sleeping & performance arrangements we started speaking about our other sibling acquiring a second job. Then my radio show came into conversation, along with my soap making endeavors.

This time last year I was on my way to doing what I thought was necessary while struggling to generate cash flow. Income and Cash Flow are two different matters of their own. I believe that having “income” doesn’t mean that Ü have “cash flow”, but I digress. This year, I have truly learned from a few of the mistakes I have made for myself. I have been doing some grand reflecting, building & engaging with my loving, understanding and oh-so patient Queen that will be designing our near future. Our children will be enjoying the fruits of that planning this Summer (since school is out). Things are looking quite swell currently, if I say they are and don’t lose that mind set!!!

All things considered, things are coming together in the most beautiful of ways!!! I couldn’t imagine things going any other way. That is always a good thing right?


Technology of Today

Listening to podcasts and reading certain tech articles online are maybe the only ways I find out about new technologies. I would like to think that I am a lil bit less than riding the  proverbial technological wave, I truly don’t like having the newest of new shyt that comes out. I used to be scared of being tracked by the government and whatnot…now Im scared of losing my humanity.

I could possibly go on but I think my point is at least out there. I have been having the hardest time deciding if I actually want to have a cell phone for a LONG time. I just don’t like the ideal of THAT much access to communicate with me. I find it sad that people don’t write others letters like 10 years or so ago. Handwriting is becoming a dying art form quickly. My fear is not being able to access certain groups of people due to being “outdated”. Like, trying to get people to listen to my “Mixtape”…


I TRULY had a hard time trying to get people to listen to my CD in 2010…its just not how people access music anymore. Making a “physical” music product is like moving backwards in the music industry. “Physical” copies of certain things are no longer a viable way of “doing it” any more. Not sex, I mean like, people PAY for mobile games that allow Ü to acquire “in game money”, so Ü can purchase in game stuff, right? And if Ü run out on the in game money, Ü can use more REAL money to purchase the fake money and continue to progress further in the game.

Maybe Im missing something?

Maybe we are SUPPOSED to plug shyt into the back of our heads at night so we can “recharge”. Maybe we don’t need to eat food no more. Maybe we can all put a helmet on our heads and play volleyball on Mars in the near future. Maybe…


There are only a few different outcomes:

The Good
The Bad


Maybe something else???




The Monthly Evaluation

Looking back over the things that I have been overtaking lately, I can clearly see that things are progressing in a direction that I deem positive. The most important thing that I see is the things I have done in my past. Not that I tend to live in my past, but more so, I like to observe and learn from the footprints I leave behind.

I wrote a blog earlier this year about Perspective…my perspective to be specific.

I did that basically to put what I am doing/have been going through “on paper”. Seeing those things were like seeing a wall of successes, brick by brick, built with sweat and Time.  I usually reference that blog myself occasionally and lately…it dawned on me:

That perspective I had on Life has changed drastically! So much so that most of what I wrote has come into some type of fruition. During a conversation with one of my aunts a few weeks prior to writing this piece, she stressed to me how important and necessary it is to write down the thoughts and plans on my mind. As much as it has been stressed to me in the past, one would believe that I write EVERYTHING down! I actually can’t stand writing. I don’t even like writing raps on paper…until I copyright them…

I will be writing this “Monthly Evaluation” down though! Maybe not so much a monthly thing and more and “ongoing evaluation process”.  I want to be able to tackle objectives in order of mentalogical order…I made that word up but its ohkay though…

A lot of projects are arriving on a release, reveal, unleash, unveil and all them other words of wonder and refreshment! I will continue to tweak and fine tune all the tools I have in order  to bring the grandest experience possible from my side of the spectrum. Progress is a process and I loving the experiences that come from each day! I will be keeping Ü well informed in whatever way that I know how! So be smooth this weekend and don’t forget to brush you teeth!!!