A few days ago I went to take my daughter to school and while I was driving I noticed I was pulling to the right a bit hard. My mind ain’t been in the right frame in a few so I thought I needed an alignment. I drop her off and come back to the car and it has a FULL FLAT tire.
I do NOT drive my truck far/nor often enough to even sustain such an injury to my vehicle (his first name is Sim…Sim Sonoma). I pull out my portable air pump and let it bang. It fill up completely and there was no sign of leaks. Which brings us to today…4 days later…and the tire still has air in it.
Now, I’m not the smartest of men, but air just don’t…leak ALL THE WAY out of ONE tire under normal circumstances, right? I do not recall hitting a nail or glass or person in the last long time so I’m good there. And the tires I keep on Simmy are something decent. ALL of those things lead me to only ONE conclusion:
Somebody Stole AIR Out My Tire!!!!
I’m pissed there are people that low in the world…
So I was giving an interview to a Ms. Dawn Witte, whom had recently come from Africa visiting children she sponsors, when she invited me to Africa with her in 2020. She truly urged me to move things in my schedule in order to make that trip. I did not deny the request, but I didn’t confirm it either….
Shortly after that, I was invited to attend the 8th Annual Grrrd Awards, held in Newport Beach, CA. I actually had to make a VERY quick decision on rather I would attend or so….I choose to go to LA! Truly didn’t know what I was getting myself into, but the intentions are to change my current situation for the better.
Right after I booked my flight, I call my mans in LA! Except he wasn’t in LA any more. He moved to ATL to continue filming for a few TV shows he works on. But then he offered for me and my wife to come out to ATL with him for a week or so. I said “Hell Yeah!”. So now I gotta plan for that in the Spring…or sooner…
I set up another interview with an EXTREMELY interesting individual, Tim Trillioni. During the interview. He invited me to conduct my show in New Orleans in early February, kinda close to Mardi Gras he said. Much like Atlanta and Africa, I’ve never been, so if the information is provided to me, Ill be Louisiana and maybe take my wife and children to see that Sonic The Hedgehog movie.
Don’t block your blessing by being indecisive. (A message to self)
It has been a long minute since I have written a post such as this (Xzibit A, B, C, & X). I almost feel that I could put TOO much in this post…so I won’t. I will say, I have to make it my duty to be on point this time. I will not go into TOO many details in this post, but just let it be known that THAT post is coming! This is the forcible 1st of many more to come.
I have been finding it easy to make any type of excuse for the things I KNOW will make me a better, more rounded human being. So I need to hold myself accountable in more than 3 dimensions. Taking accountability for the things that I DO have control over is one of the 1st steps in making the things I want to happen.
With these/those words above being true to their being in the position I have placed them, I will be moving forward on a positive tip. I just want to start making small impacts more so than large achievements. The goal is to make sure I am being heard…even if I’m only being read (red not reed). This is the 1st of many. Many 1st this is the of…
The batteries came out of my Xbox controller, because I dropped it…they didn’t just do that on they own. But anyway, as I was putting them back in “correctly” it kind of dawned on me:
Positive & Negative forces often make shyt work!!!
There are some of ya’ll out there with degrees from learning institutes that might have already found this out, but let me tell Ü, this is MIND BLOWING to me! With as much “adversity”, “negativity”, and slick as remarks I have been getting in my life, I understand NOW that this is the only way shyt is gonna work for me!!!
I have come to FULLY grasp one of my favorite lines in “Scarface”!
The main thing that I have noticed with myself is the nature and AWESOME ability of procrastination. I can put things off until the last minute, usually completing whatever in the time, but maybe suffering from lack of refinement. So I gotta truly stop that!
Practicing on being more consistant that yesterday is what will turn me into a Superhero! Not saying it like I WANT to be Batman, more so, ‘With great power, comes great responsibilities”. I KNOW that I can do more than what I am (or even have been) lately. So I need to start working on making what i have been doing more consistant.
Consistency is KEY! And I have been coming with the consistency of pancake batter lately!! Gotta get serious!!!
I always feel as if I haven’t done enough during whatever time period I place upon myself. I guess that comes with being a perfectionist. I just feel it causes even more of a strain, for me, when that goal (or desired result) is not reached. A lot of people “shoot for the moon to be with the stars!” and all that bullshyt…
I be tryna shoot for Sirius and be pissed when I land on Mars.
I might have done something not many have done and be pissed because it is not what I expected…not how I envisioned and a lot of other discriptive verbs I could use to paint a picture with no colors.
Either way, I aint dead yet, so I got that going for me…
I promise this daily blog thing is a LOT harder than what I thought it would be when I started this recent “writing down my thoughts challenge“. I may have put more on myself than was actually needed…or even wanted!
Even right now, I should wrote the #MusicMonday post but I have been doing other shyt today. Just getting to the point of truly wanting to write for the day. Promise I’ll get it together on a more consistent basis. It’s been seven days since I last wrote something and it kinda unfortunate I neglect ya’ll like a bastard ass child…
I bring presents sometimes though! Just not today… I gotta go see a man about a horse.
This is a VERY long story with all its intricacies but I’ll try to stick with the FACTS! When we moved to Texas back in Spring 20-18, I took a few temp jobs before I took the job I stole this computer from. During the interview, Dude (his name in the story) all but convinced me to “join the team” and make thousands of dollars a WEEK! All I needed was the drive and a laptop computer. I had a laptop computer! But it was…cosmetically challenged…so Dude loaned me this Lenovo!
“Once Ü start making money, just buy a new computer and give me this one back.” – Dude
Fast forward like, 2 months. I haven’t made any money and they have fired Dude! A supremely hostile office takeover that left the “team” at each others paychecks!!! It’s crazy how money can make humans turn cannibalistic. The “making money” Dude spoke about was oh so real! Almost $100,000 in checks were passed out the first payday I was in the office. Every Monday after was almost similar, but they fired Dude soon after I started, demoted my trainer, rewrote MY business, and showed very little concern for my wife almost losing her life…
With Dude out the office and state (I helped him pack up his house for $100), me broke & almost a single father…I took Lenny Lenovo and left. Funny thing is, Lenny is actually a stolen computer. Dude had loaned “a white laptop” to a past employee who actually made money with the company. Then he went missing. Long story short, he was in jail for selling Meth and sold the white computer. Dude (who didn’t know all that at the time) sent him some money to send the computer back to him. When it finally arrived, months later, it was Lenny.
Lenny is completely different white computer Meth man (no relation) sent back to Dude. Dude lent Lenny Lenovo to me to make money and that is what I am going to do!
*I wrote this story 2 other times that did not post. #Pissed
This song is dope! Lyrics aside, this song took maybe close to a decade to be in the shape that it’s in currently. If Ü were to ask me this song is incomplete in a few different ways, so I’m happy Ü never asked!
Right off the jump, Ü might notice the sample of Young Dro’s “Shoulder Lean” during the hook. I do remember the song being popular around the time this track was produced by my cousin Bonez. Regardless, the beat is super dope! I used to listen to it forever but never came up with anything solid to lay on top of the instrumental. If my cousin sold it to someone else, I’ll never know, but I held on to it since the day he gave it to me (or I stole it).
Flash forward to the summer of 2013.
I had intention to move to Los Angels with my OTHER producer cousin, Primo Imani, way back in December/November of 2012. He ended up in Sacramento with his aunt by the time summer came around so I went out there instead. When I got there I brought my Mac Mini to finish mixing my latest project “Sketches Vol.2: #Unbalanced“. I also had a hard drive with the “Young Dro sample beat” on it. Enter my cousins husband Savior.
Without saying TOO much about who this guy is and WHY it’s so dope to get him on a vocal recording of any kind, I low-key convinced my cousins husband to jump this beat. It was something that just came up with I started clicking tracks while we was free-styling. We spent more time trying to figure out how to transfer the mp3 to his studio so we could lay it down that we actually spent writing AND recording the song. After like an hour, we went to get whatever food his wife cooked while we was bullshytin’ with our lives.
When I left California headed to Michigan for a wedding, the song only had our verses. I had sent a bird out to a few different people to see if they want the middle verse. Only one person actually sent me a verse, but it was time sensitive and self destructed before I got the chance to adhere it to the unfinished track. And now that Im sitting here thing about it, I don’t even believe the song was finished that year. I eventually had to call Savior and let him know I needed the raw .WAV files so I could finish mixing the song. I had to cut the 3rd verse out of the song (Ü can’t even tell I did that) and come up with a hook to fill the empty space. Thus, “Block Talk” was born!
As I sit here contemplating my next move, I have to weight out the options. On one hand:
Staying in my current position could offer me flexibility to become a fixture in the corporate world! I’d still be at the bottom for a few more years or until people get fired or whatever…but yeah…
I could do something different that has the opportunity for a bit of freedom AND the likelihood of doing some traveling. As many may have known, I still have my CDL license…I drove semis safely across the country (38 state or more). I no longer want to do that for MULTIPLE reasons and because of that factor, I got into a different industry that is to the acquiring of this computer.